你好, 近來好嗎.
除了常常都很累外, 我頗好, 謝謝你.
最近的天氣真的很舒服, 是我最喜歡的那種.
我有告訴你我喜歡冷風吹打著我的感覺麼?
一方面讓我擁有存在感,
另一方面我總是覺得只要體溫下降, 我會變得心如止境.
但今年 (忘記了去年是否也是這樣), 我卻不再享受這種天氣.
我不知道為什麼, 但我總是想起你; 尤其早上, 晚上乘電車時.
兩年了, 早就需要 format 關於你的記憶吧.
張小姐說純粹你是我這方面的最後主角, 所以我才會依然常常想你.
是這樣的話, 我應盡快找你的代替品,
還是, 因為你已不能傷害我, 所以我應繼續利用你, 作為我的”最後主角”?
我只知道若”天氣”已可以令我想你, 那樣我就糟糕了…
我想, 若果經濟狀況許可的話, 我以後乘地鐵好了.
Great so I’m writing monthly now? It’s a tad better than writing annually, I guess.
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It’s not exactly a secret that I am not a fan of my university. As a matter of fact, I’ve somewhat subconsciously steered clear from anything anyone that had to do with those three long years. So unless I ran into them on the streets (which happens more often than one would have thought), I didn’t keep in touch with anyone (maybe one, once in a while).
People from my university; they go work for the government, multinational corporations, or mid-size companies… With so many business in Hong Kong and so few spots in my company, what are the chances of me working with a fellow schoolmate of the same major?
Clearly I’ve underestimated how tiny Hong Kong is; because the company I’m working for, a small digital marketing firm with a total of 13 staff, recently hired two guys from my school; both just graduated from the same degree program as I did, and one of them I actually knew from my former life. Considering that I don’t show up to school half the time, it was a miracle that I recognized all 30 people in my major… or was that 50?
From day one the first guy started in September, I wanted nothing to do with them and was completely uninterested in getting to know him or even to talk to him, which for me is strange because I usually try to make people comfortable, especially in a new environment. I wasn’t hostile but I wasn’t particularly friendly either (imagine my delight when the second guy showed up a few months later). Aware that I was guilty of stereotyping, I gradually tried to at least keep an open mind.
Last week I had the chance to work with one of them… and I was grossly disappointed by how careless and how uncommitted he was. It was so bad that I thought I better have a talk with him as a fellow alumni who want to look out for him, before he gets into trouble.
So taking advantage of him feeling guilty of being the direct cause of me working overtime (and hence he was vulnerable to “attacks”), I asked how he thought about the job, if he had any difficulties, what sort of work he was looking for from the start… etc. I lured the truth out of him about what industry he truly wanted to explore, why he took the job (does everyone here make more than I do???), what he thought of the work (so much attention paid on tiny i.e. trivial details) Then, in a sisterly fashion (making it explicit that my advice was from the perspective of a fellow schoolmate, not a colleague), I advised on how he should see his tasks – yes anyone with a brain can do it, it may seem you’re wasting time, but when you’re starting out, it means doing to most basic tasks and understand why everyone stresses over tiny details so much. Especially when the platform we’re working on is so simple and bounded by the frames of a monitor, those tiny details in comparison aren’t so trivial anymore. (I managed to leave out “if you can’t do something that simple, something that anyone can do, let alone do it well, what does that say about you?”) I continued to babble about how mentality is very important and if he doesn’t change how he sees his work and tasks, he wasn’t going to do well here. Then I offered to help him out if he needed any, which I thought was very generous of me, considering how little I wanted to do with all things HKU.
We arrived at his stop at that point of my speech, so he had a valid reason to escape. I knew I was wasting my time because he apparently was not listening to me at all, and that pissed me off a great deal. I could have guessed that him not taking in what I had to say was the most probable outcome, but I just couldn’t help myself from telling him what I thought and annoyed by me not able to keep my mouth shut. He obviously didn’t appreciated it (I sensed this subliminally) and I came out as a busy-body. Lesson of the day: Grow up and Mind your own business Jennifer…
